as it turns out, i guess i'm a bad judge of character. i thought he was the one... that special person who makes my heart skip a beat, my stomach to flip, my hands to shake. well, he was that person. i just don't know what happened. you think you know someone and then the give up, throw the towel in and leave you with that blank look on your face. And all for what? a lame-o excuse that means squat! how about we grow some feelings and tell me the truth! WHY!?! one day we're talking about marriage and our future together ...then the next day everything changes! why?! am i not worthy op at least a better explanation? we haven't even ever fought... and you're saying that you forsee us fighting all the time so we should just throw out the baby with the bath water?!? what are you running from? of course everyone is scared! if you weren't scared i'd be worried. it's okay! i just want to hear the truth ... whether i can handle it or not, i just want the truth please!! i know taht we are so completely different. That's what i love! opposites do attract ... me and you ... i miss you. i'm not sure what to feel anymore. abandoned? hopeless? forgotten about? unworthy of your love? what i do know is that i feel sad because i don't have you here anymore. it's like there's something missing from life. everyone i see,everything i do, i'm always reminded of you. i wish i knew if you miss me too. i'm so tired of wishing for your hand in mine... i can't give up though. not without a fight. are you going to fight? fight for love, the real deal... fight for me? no? should i fight for you? i wish i was wanted. wanted in your arms. please. come back. i miss you.